Eventually comes

Eventually comes.

This is my Eventually necklace from R House Couture.

I bought it right after I wrote {this post}, because I needed something to remind me that the word eventually implies events actually occurring in their own time. It implies that it is okay to hope because things are going to happen... eventually. Eventually also implies waiting, and as hard as this may be...

Eventually always comes.

I have been dying to blog for the longest time... to be able to express the thoughts and feelings I have had over the last 3 weeks.

4 weeks ago I was saying:

Eventually this ache will go away.

Eventually we will be picked.

Eventually we will have children and have an eternal family.

Within the last few weeks a lot of those eventually statements have started to come.

October 16th we got an email that changed our lives. I was a little nervous at first and tried not to let myself think much of it. Two weeks before we had gotten our first contact from a birthparent due in November, but we never heard back from her. It was hard to get our hopes up, but we responded back to the email and another miracle happened... she emailed us back!

The emails progressed and we got to know her a little better over the next few days. She is from Alaska and totally loves it, she loves all kinds of sports and being active, She is in the army reserves and is a recent convert to the church. She got to know us too and she said that the more she got to know us the more she felt right about us.

Then, 5 days after first talking, I popped on to Facebook to see Brittani. October 21st, 2009 she told us that she wanted my husband and me to be the parents of her baby.

{SCREAM}

and it was loud too...

Can I just say that facebook will forever have a special place in my heart?

Here is a woman I barely knew, walking with faith and trusting her Heavenly Father as she told us this. This was literally one of those 'eventually' moments coming to pass, forever changing our lives in the course of this life and eternity.

From the beginning we started telling her we loved her. How can you love someone you hardly know? I guess the same way you love a child growing in your belly, or other unborn children waiting to come into your family. We love her because she is the mother of our daughter and she is going to be forever in our hearts and considered as a very important person in what will eventually become our very extended family. Our love continues to grow for her each day as we witness her strength and faith in what she is doing, and especially as she expresses her love for this little girl who is coming into the world on January 14^th. (or fairly close to it!)

Adoption today is so different than it use to be. Some people don’t understand how I can get to know her, or why she would want to get to know us. I don’t understand how I couldn’t.

Some people don’t understand how she is able to do this. To put it simply, she isn’t doing this because it’s about her or us. She is the most unselfish person I know. She is doing this because she loves her daughter. On her daughter’s birthday she will give her precious little baby two parents that love her and each other; and in a few months they will become a forever family in the temple of our Lord. If I were in her shoes, I would not be able to do what she is doing unless I understood what a powerful thing this is. We thank God everyday that she does understand.

Some people don’t get how we can love and be happy with another woman’s baby as our own. [Seriously, I was telling our happy news and someone said, “oh, so that means you can’t have your own children then? I’m so sorry.”] Maybe some people can’t, but as for us, we already do. We can’t wait to see her sweet little face and hold her in our arms and love her to pieces. Really the only way to understand all of this is to accept it for what it is: a miracle.

It seems like miracles are unfolding everyday; everything from people looking for ways to help us to me getting through another statistics class (That is a whole other story).

We are so blessed to know our Heavenly Father is in the details.

We are so blessed to have Brittani and this little wonder come into our lives.

Our Heavenly Father loves us.

Miracles Happen.

Eventually comes.